Song Sung Blue

Day 2 of school. I had high hopes. She was in a good mood and was having fun walking to the classroom and then she kind of balked when she saw the doors. I led her inside and sat her down at the table. Amelia started crying before I even got out of the classroom today. They started clapping and singing "If you're happy and you know it..." and she started going into her slo-mo cry. I am not sure if she did not like the loud, sudden singing or if she realized I was going to leave. I tried to redirect her, but she just kept crying. Finally I decided I was making it worse by prolonging things, so I gave her a hug, told her I loved her and I would see her later. Gave her a kiss, waved goodbye and when I got outside I broke down crying again.

I remember when I used to leave her in the play area at the gym it was like this the first couple times and then she was into it whenever we would go. I really hope she stops crying after the third or fourth time because my heart cannot take much more of this.

And I did get my lunch sack back yesterday. The teacher put it in the car and I did not realize it. It also contained her leftover snacks, which I was happy to see because now I have a better idea of what she may have consumed at school the other day. I also was given her AMELIA placard to put in the windshield of my car so they know who I am there to pick up in the afternoon. Also, her sign in sheet was in the binder today so I signed her in. It makes me feel better that she is documented! I still have not gotten her a nap mat. I have a cute soft, thick blanket that Aunt Joelle gave her that makes a nice sleep surface. I also packed her baby doll that the Grips gave her for her baptism. I hope they give her some comfort at school.